Radhey Radhey
It was in 2006 when I first met my Pyaari Badi Didi.
A year prior to that, I had attended a Satsang in Fiji as a new Satsangi and also got the first glimpse of our Beloved Gurudev and our three Pyaari Didis. Just through those video glimpses of Manghar and our divine family, and the speeches of Maharaji, I felt a magnetic pull towards what I was witnessing. I felt very quickly that I may have found something that was missing in my life. It was then that I knew that there was a spiritual path waiting for me and that it was up to me to do something about it, and I did. I decided to go to India to visit our Gurudham.
I was introduced to Badi Didi in 2006 at Bhakti Mandir during the Arti session by Neelu Didi. I was introduced as Roshni’s Mum and Prasann Patel's mother-in-law. I can still hear Didi’s exact words, “Acha Acha,” and then Badi Didi touched the right side of my face with her beautiful, soft hands. No words were needed. I felt like I had entered another world and knew instantly that I had come to the right place and that I had found my spiritual path. It wasn’t a dream, it was real!! Badi Didi’s eyes said it all.
It is often said that in every person’s life, there comes a time when they encounter someone who leaves an indelible mark on their lives. This is our Badi Didi. Someone who selflessly imparted wisdom, provided unwavering support and guidance to each and every one around her.
Badi Didi inspired us all to push beyond our limits, to have unwavering belief in our spiritual paths, and to embrace what may lie ahead when we continue on our spiritual journey. Didi’s dedication towards our spiritual growth touches our hearts and souls daily.
From the day you touched my cheek in 2006, Badi Didi, to this current day, I thank you for accepting me into your spiritual fold and being the continuing guiding light on my spiritual journey. Your love, guidance, and grace will continue to inspire me, and Badi Didi, you will forever be embedded in my heart. As per my usual sign off phrase with you on Zoom, Hamari Pyaari Badi Didi: - “Bahut Bahut Sara Pyaar”
JAI SHREE RADHEY
~ Sushila Sharma NEW ZEALAND
I will never truly know all the ways in which Badi Didi’s association has benefited me, but I am deeply grateful for the moments I do recognize.
Since childhood, I have always felt that she knew me well. Only now, as I look back on my memories with her, I realize she always knew me better than I knew myself. She recognized when I was about to falter, protected me through it, and continues to be the strength that lifts me up.
I am so fortunate to have been in the company of someone who has always looked after my spiritual, mental, and physical well-being—someone who has taken on the challenges in my life as her own, so that I may overcome the obstacles on my path of devotion and pursue my true purpose.
I hope to live each day in a way that brings joy to Shri Maharaj Ji and strengthens my love for him—something I would not know how to do without Badi Didi’s words, actions, and the example she set through the way she lived her life.
There is no progress I can make towards Shri Maharaj Ji without Didi’s guidance. Badi Didi will forever be my home.
~ Yashavi Reddy, USA (Youth)
What she meant to me
After Shree Maharajji ascended, I thought the world, as I knew it, had ended. The light at the end of every tunnel seemed to vanish as I grieved the devastating loss of my Guru. I couldn’t fathom how I would continue on his path or return to Guru Dham, Mangarh, or Mussoorie without his physical presence to guide me.
And then, Badi Didi really came into my life. Like a quiet, steady flame, she illuminated my way forward. She carried the weight of loss yet radiated unwavering strength. Patiently and lovingly, she coaxed me to visit Mussoorie and Mangarh two years later, showing me by example that it was possible to carry on. She taught me that Shree Maharajji’s physical absence didn’t mean He was no more; he lived on in the path He had shown us, and in the efforts of those devoted to Him.
I vividly remember her saying:
“I am your Didi. Shree Maharajji is also my Guru, and we all share the same goal—to serve our Guru and to reach him. All you have to do is hold onto him and keep coming back to his Dham as often as you can.”
Her words brought me back.
These simple yet profound words also became my anchor. She didn’t just tell me how to continue—she showed me how to live it. With her love and guidance, I began to look forward to visiting India again. Watching her, along with Manjhali Didi and Chhoti Didi, surrender themselves entirely to Shree Maharajji’s mission was a living example of devotion. They didn’t just uphold his teachings—they embodied them. Their lives were a reflection of his instructions, unchanged and unshaken. Every step they took, from completing his unfinished projects to maintaining the routines he had set, was a testament to their complete surrender and selfless devotion.
Through their association, their love, and their support, I was showered with the divine nectar of ras. When Badi Didi called my name, looked at me as she spoke, or handed me prasad, I felt a deep thrill, as if Maharajji himself were present. It was then I understood—his divine love still flowed through them, and by opening my heart to them, I could feel him more closely.
Badi Didi was more than a leader; she was a visionary. She carried Shree Maharajji’s message into the modern world by embracing technology and social media, she ensured his teachings reached every corner of the world. YouTube Shorts, Insta Reels, and Short, byte-sized Divya Updesh became widely abundant, and Shree Maharajji’s philosophy soon began to spread virally.
Platforms like Kripalu Nidhi and Zoom sessions have become lifelines for devotees like me, struggling to stay connected in the midst of our busy lives. These were her gifts to us—like two gentle hands, lifting us up from the waves of maya, refusing to let us sink. She ensured that no matter where we were, we could feel Maharajji’s presence, even from afar.
Her words still echo in my ears:
“Kab aaogi tum yahan? Loot lo jitna loot sakti ho, phir yeh jeevan ka kya bharosa”.
Oh, how I wish I had listened more, come more often, and embraced every moment of her presence. The regret pierces my heart, but it also drives me forward. I know now that I must strive harder, visit more frequently, and treasure the presence of Manjhali Didi and Chhoti Didi, who continue to carry Shree Maharajji’s light with unwavering devotion.
Badi Didi, your radiant smile was my sun, warming my skin with its glow. Your loving look, my moonshine—tender and sweet, softening my soul. Your gentle ways, a soft breeze—stirring my spirit, urging me to follow. Your sweet voice, chiding me, guiding my heart, bringing me to my senses.
Badi Didi, your physical presence may be gone, but I know that when I close my eyes and think of Maharajji, you are right there. Your loving smile, your gentle guidance—they live on in my heart. You have become a part of my journey, inseparable from the path to my Guru.
Yours always,
~ Sunita Lal, USA
My first visit to Mangarh with my parents and sister was when I was 5 1/2 years old. As my parents spent most of their time running from hall to hall, I had the privilege of being babysat by my beautiful Didis, Badi Didi, Manjili Didi, and Choti Didi.
I remember sitting on their laps and getting precious hugs and cuddles. Then there came the introduction of the “bhajia.” I had never eaten bhajia before, and because it was first fed to me by Badi Didi, and she noticed that I liked it, I became her “Bhajia Boy”. Thereafter, it became my favourite dish till today.
No matter where Badi Didi went, I insisted on going with her, and being the beautiful soul that she was, she would take me to keep me quiet. I treasured those times with Badi Didi, unaware at that time that my spiritual path and future were being paved for me.
As the years passed and I grew older, I began to understand and appreciate the spiritual path that I must follow. Badi Didi constantly reiterated the teachings of our Beloved Maharaji and instilled in us the right from wrong.
Badi Didi instilled in us the correct spiritual path one must take and the importance of how this path, if correctly followed, would shape our futures. Bearing this in mind, I strive to follow my Badi Didi’s Aagya.
Badi Didi watched me grow from a 5 1/2 year old to a 15-year-old. Although I could no longer sit in her lap, I would still sneak in a hug and a cuddle from time to time, much to her delight and my pleasure. I know she loved me dearly, and I loved her back.
I have cherished every bit of advice my Badi Didi has ever given me and have sincerely put it into practice to the best of my capability. Her unwavering love, inspiration, and compassion have been instilled in me.
Pyaari Badi Didi, you will be in my life and in my heart forever. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the love and joy you showered on me. You will remain in my heart, never to be forgotten.
As per my favourite saying for you:
“Didi, Aap Kaise Ho”
Love you forever my Pyaari Badi Didi
Radhey Radhey
~ Shyam Patel, New Zealand (Youth)
I first met Badi Didi on my first trip to Mangarh in 1998. From my very first encounter with Badi Didi, I was instantly mesmerised by her. Her gentleness, her kindness, and her charm. You could read a thousand words in those beautiful eyes of Badi Didi. Words were not necessary. She made me feel so welcome, and I felt like I had known her forever. Such was the aura of our Badi Didi.
Badi Didi made my first ever trip full of joy, love, and laughter, embedded with the seriousness of what our future path needed to be. Badi Didi continually emphasised the path of God and the Guru. A path that would pave our future.
I found a mother figure in Badi Didi and always felt so much at home being around her. Her inspiration and guidance will be cherished by all. Badi Didi has dedicated her life to ensuring that we follow the spiritual path that our Beloved Gurudev has paved for us, and she has spent countless hours emphasising this.
She has always guided me in the spiritual direction that has made me a better human being, and her continuous inspiration has never failed me. Badi Didi had this special gift of motivating, guiding, and providing support for the younger and older generation, towards the spiritual path already laid out for us by our Beloved Maharaji.
She has showered the same love, support, inspiration, and guidance towards both my children, who were extremely attached to her and will continue loving her.
Although a sense of extreme loss overcomes me, I remember Badi Didi’s precious words that there is no end to our devotion to God and Guru.
My Pyaari Badi Didi, thank you for being my guiding light, the inspiration in continuing to reach my spiritual goals, and for all the love and grace you have showered upon me.
Love and miss you my Pyaari Badi Didi.
Forever in my heart.
Radhey Radhey
~ Roshni Patel, New Zealand
Badi Didi was the epitome of love, affection, nurturance, and compassion. She would reach out to everyone and speak to them so sweetly with loving care. In 1992, when I first met Maharajji, he called me *Musladhar Varshaa* and since then, Badi Didi has always addressed me by that nickname whenever I met her. She would narrate that incident every time & tell everyone that Maharaj Ji had given me that name. Such was her affection! She would always hold my face with both her hands with a sweet, loving smile. I can still feel her soft touch on my cheeks and hands!! She made everyone feel very special. Badi Didi has always inspired and motivated us to do Seva Simran Sadhana and remember our Hari Guru all the time. She would remind us of this eternal truth again and again
“Hari Guru ka hi sumiran karo! kyunki ek kshan ka bhi bharosa nahin yeh manav deh kabhi bhi chin sakta kabhi bhi ticket kat sakta hai. Soch lo yeh sab chhodna hi hai. Wahan par kya jawab doge?”
Badi Didi practically made us realise by her own example that “Zindagi ka koi bharosa nahin, agla kshan mile na mile humme jaldi karna hai!!”
Badi Didi, you will forever live in my heart. Your motherly affection, your simplicity, your grace, and your unbound love will inspire us for the rest of our lives. Our only solace is that you are now with Maharaj Ji and Amma.
I have 100% faith that Maharaj Ji and you are always with us, guiding us and gracing us. I promise to remember Your aadesh and do the aagya palan to do my Seva Simran Sadhana. Aapke charon mein koti koti naman
Aapki
~ Varshaa Panjabi Hong Kong
Before I met Shri Maharaj Ji I was blessed with a copy of Prem Ras Madira. In that I have read the following composition of Mahasakhi Madhuri
विशाखा सखि, सखियन सरदार ।
दामिनि-दुति सम गौर कलेवर, दमकत सुषमा सार ।
पहिरे वसन मनोहर सोहति, तारागन अनुहार ।
रंग बिरंगे वसन पिन्हावति, सदा युगल सरकार ।
जनु प्रतिबिंब संग श्यामा के, रात दिवस इकसार ।
जानत सबै ‘कृपालु’ रीति-रस, प्यारी सों अति प्यार ॥
The first time I met His divine family, I could not help but notice Badi Didi and Vishakha Sakhi have a lot more similarities than just the name.
I have seen many people with vitiligo. It causes people to lose melanin in patches. But Badi Didi’s complexion was flawless like moonlight. Just as it is described in Maharaj Ji’s composition!
No matter what color she wore, those clothes looked elegant on her. As Maharaj Ji described in His composition!
A few satsangis have the seva of creating dresses for Yugal sarkar. Saw Badi Didi lovingly and patiently improving the patterns, colors, and designs. Again, just as it is described in Maharaj Ji’s composition!
Maharaj Ji would spring on a picnic in her courtyard, or challenge her to a competition in giving dawat. Badi Didi always rose to the challenge, and yet did it humbly. Also, saw old videos of Maharaj Ji where Badi Didi is always right next to Him. Again, just as it is described in Maharaj Ji’s composition!
Every satsangi strives to please Shri Maharaj Ji with their seva. Badi Didi was their guide in improving upon their original idea. Again, just like Maharaj Ji described, the Leaders of the Sakhis!
All this convinced me that Badi Didi is a descendant of Vishaka Sakhi.
When Maharaj Ji was in Fortis hospital in Delhi in 2013, satsangis kept pouring into the hospital. Frankly, everyone was distraught. Even in that tough time, Badi Didi gently reminded us about Shri Maharaj Ji’s personality and His philosophy. She told us that Maharaj Ji has fallen several times from great heights and nothing happened to Him. If he has decided to go this way, then no one can do anything. To console the satsangis, several times every day, Badi Didi would walk amidst the rows of people with folded hands. Her darshan had a calming effect on the satsangis and gave me the strength to endure the pain.
I recall the first time I went to Mangarh after Maharaj Ji ceased His visual pastimes. After reaching there, I was gripped with a feeling of hopelessness. I was confused why I was there when Maharaj Ji was not there. Still, since I was there, I decided to go to Didi’s area to do pranam to Didis. Somehow, seeing Badi Didi, I felt like Maharaj Ji was there in her form. Never again did I ever doubt the presence of Shri Maharaj Ji.
Badi Didi was so gentle and yet so fearless. I had a glimpse of that in Gaya. People were gossiping that girls doing pind daan is against the rules. Someone commented, “Girls will be shoulder to shoulder with the boys in doing pind daan”. Badi Didi was so quick to allay all fears and criticism. She refuted it all with a single sentence, “I will do pind daan on my own just like Sita Ji did it for Dashrath ji”. The gentle strength, her knowledge of history, her presence of mind, everything was resting and calming.
I had first-hand experience of her care, concern, and problem-solving abilities when I came down with a prolonged illness while visiting India. Badi Didi was more concerned about me than me. I am so grateful that Badi Didi graced me with the opportunity to recover in the Vrindavan hospital. She made the time of my prolonged recovery also so full of bhakti, by putting me in a divine place surrounded by so many devotees humbly doing selfless seva. That whole experience was the power of words to describe.
At the Gurudham Badi, Didi inspected the samples of stone carvings and improved upon the designs. Her creativity and attention to detail always baffled me. During Kirti Mandir inauguration, Badi Didi said, “I asked Swaris to record Maharaj Ji’s compositions on jankar beats. Now for dancing also you can have Maharaj Ji’s compositions”.
During COVID times, all three Didis gave darshan to us on Zoom regularly. It was so helpful in staying connected with Maharaj Ji despite not being able to visit them. And I would say it helped me maintain my sanity amidst a pandemic.
During the Gurudham inauguration, Badi Didi had barely recovered from cancer. Still, while peeping from the tiny window we could see that Badi Didi reviewed all the progress, arrangements and programs. She guided everyone with a smile and maintained her strict regimen of waking up at 1 am and staying engaged in seva all day long.
Still, every time anyone praised Badi Didi for her efforts in advancing Shri Maharaj Ji’s mission, she was so quick to give credit for everything to Maharaj Ji.
She reminded us of the key points of Shri Maharaj Ji's philosophy in such simple words. Her laugh was so uplifting. Bari Didi encouraged us to never miss participating in the Bhakti challenge.
In a nutshell, Badi Didi left no stone unturned to move us further along on the path of bhakti. Her selfless attitude and her humility have set the gold standard of selfless seva for us.
It is impossible to count all the ways in which Badi Didi has impacted me. I just have a prayer in her lotus feet, please grace me so I can serve Maharaj Ji like you do.
~ Neeharika Peter, USA
Badi Didi - The dearest person in my life.
She is Love Personified - Universal Mother whose entire existence is to grace the souls. Multiple precious personnel memories with Badi Didi to cherish in last 5+ years which can’t be described in words.
Few words in Hindi to express my feelings about Badi Didi:
“Jinka Chandramukh Anant Suryo sa prakashmaan ho,
Jinki har mudra Ek Adwitiya Ada ho,
Jinke Shabdo mein Mradu komalta aur Braj Ras ka Saar ho,
Jinke Riday mein apne bacho Ke liye anant anant Pyaar ho
Jinke darshan matra se Guru Bhakti ka Pradurbhav ho
Jo is Guru Dham ki Chamak, Damak aur Mahak ho
Jinke hone matra se hi sab kuch ho
Jinke bina, Jeevan ki parikalpana bhi Shunya si Pratit ho
Nahi ye “Prem ki Vishesh Shakha” nahi. Varan Prem ki sakshat Murti hai Hamari Pyari Badi Didi”
With lots of love & tears in eyes - Anand Singapore
My first experience with Didi was on my first trip to India in 2001.
Swami Prakashanand never spoke about Didis back in the 80s and 90s so I didn’t even know who they were, so when we were told that we were going to see the three Didis I thought they were talking about Deities.
That’s how clueless I was. So imagine my surprise when we walked into a room and there they were. We were told to pranam and kiss their feet.
It was so exciting.
I was very fortunate to spend quality time with Badi Didi and had amazing personal conversations with Her.
It’s hard to describe what it was like being in Her presence.
We are so fortunate to have had Her association.
It’s hard to imagine Kripalu Dham without Her.
It’s only made me kling to Shree Maharaj even more.
Jai Shree Radhey!
~ Nick Galante
I remember when I met Badi Didi for the first time, the first thing I got was a warm hug which made me feel as if I hugged Shree Maharajji, since I never got the opportunity to meet Shree Maharajji in person. Shree Maharajji sent badi didi to motivate me to come more closer to sprituality. Her Seva bhav and caring nature taught me to practice selflessness and humility. The way she showered love in just first meeting felt like I have known her forever. She cares like a mother nurture her child. Even in Every zoom session she inspired us to love Maharaj ji and she is the reason I feel more closer to Shree Maharajji . I promise I will practice more and more sadhana as taught by you and will Make Shree Maharajji happy.
Badi didi you will be always in my heart .
With warm Regards
~ Shruti Maggo , California, USA
My first encounter with Badi Didi was during my very first trip to Mangarh in December 1997. From that moment, I was drawn to her gentle kindness and the quiet strength of her presence. Her eyes carried a depth that spoke more than words ever could, and the warmth of her welcome made me feel as though I had known her all my life. Such was the profound and magnetic aura of our beloved Badi Didi.
That visit became unforgettable—filled with joy, love, and laughter, yet deeply rooted in the seriousness of our spiritual path. Badi Didi consistently emphasised the importance of devotion to God and Guru, urging us to walk the path that would protect our souls and define our future.
Badi Didi always had a soft spot for me, showering me with more grace than I could have ever deserved. Even when I was a “bad and naughty” son at times, she never held my past behaviour or many shortcomings—like my quick temper—against me. Whenever my wife Roshni pointed out these flaws, Badi Didi would stand up for me, whether I was right or wrong, and then gently guide me toward doing what was right. Her advice was always the same: “Do what makes my Guru Shree Maharaj Ji happy.” Her unwavering support and loving guidance helped me grow in ways I could never have imagined.
To me, she became not just a mentor but also a mother figure, providing comfort, wisdom, and direction. Her steadfast dedication to the teachings of our beloved Gurudev inspired everyone around her. She spent countless hours encouraging us to remain devoted to our spiritual journey, always leading by example. There was always one goal only, only one in all of Badi Didi’s actions – How to take all her children towards Maharaj Ji and God. Every action, no matter how small, had this singular purpose.
Badi Didi had a rare ability to connect with people of all ages. She nurtured both young and old with love, motivating and uplifting each of us to align with the path laid out by Maharaji. Her support and grace also extended to my children, who were deeply attached to her and will continue to hold her memory in their hearts.
Though I feel an overwhelming sense of physical loss, I find comfort in her words: that devotion to God and Guru knows no limits.
Dearest Badi Didi, thank you for being a guiding light in my life, for inspiring me to grow spiritually, and for showering me with your boundless love and grace.
You are forever in my heart and I know you are guiding and protecting me even now, my Pyaari Badi Didi. I love and miss your physical touch deeply.
Best Regards,
~ Prasann Patel, New Zealand
I’ve been fortunate enough to have Badi Didi’s presence in my life since before I could remember my own name. Growing up, I spent my summers in Mussoorie and Mangarh, going with Didis from Honey Hut and the trolley to golf cart rides to just sitting in the aangan with them. Badi Didi was like a mother to me, and she has had as much of an impact on my life as my own parents, if not more.
She is the reason I understand the importance of roopdhyan and why, now that I am old enough to make my own choices, I return to their dhams again and again. But, her impact extends beyond spirituality. Badi Didi embodies selflessness—a quality I have witnessed countless times throughout my life. Every single thing that she has done is for the purpose of serving others, from helping the patients in Jagadguru Kripalu Chikitsalaya, to the school supply drives she’s put on and so much more. It is her actions and influence that have shaped the very values and morals I have today, and it is due to her push to prioritize education that has inspired me to use my own education to make an impact on the world. If I am able to have even a fraction of an impact on the world that she has had, that in itself would be an accomplishment.
I love you forever and always, Didi. Thank you for everything.
~ Para Vasudeva , Chicago, USA (Youth).
Pyaari Badi Didi, you are everything to me. A mother, a sister, a grandmother, a friend and a beloved.
From the age of 4 years, you became a constant source of love and inspiration in my life. Your kindness, strength, and warmth touched everyone who had the privilege of knowing you, leaving a legacy of cherished memories that will forever live in our hearts.
The first day I sat on your lap, I vividly remember how magical it felt. Your soft voice wrapped around me like a warm embrace, and your presence radiated a gentle yet powerful energy that instantly made me feel safe and loved. Your eyes held a universe of wisdom, compassion, and love which was endlessly captivating. Looking into them, I felt like time stood still, and that my small worldly problems seemingly vanished.
From that very first moment, you became the light that guided me, always in plain sight of and directly in the line of my beloved Maharaji. It was through you that I first began to understand the profound beauty of Mangarh and everything this path stands for. I have learnt the true meaning of devotion, grace, and unconditional love through you, and I feel so incredibly blessed to have walked this part of my journey with you.
As I grew older and the years passed, I began to understand just how fortunate I am to have been blessed with your guidance, Badi Didi.
The wisdom and love you shared with me profoundly shaped the trajectory of my life. Your teachings and the examples you set, gave me the strength to navigate some of the darkest and most challenging times of my life.
You taught me how to remain anchored in faith and how to find clarity in God in moments of chaos. It was through your love and guidance that transformed worldly experiences into opportunities for growth and deeper connection towards God. Your influence has been the foundation of my life and for that, I am eternally grateful.
Thank you for your guidance, your love, and the greatest blessing of my life, giving me your name. Carrying it is an honour, and a gift that will forever connect me to your legacy. I will always cherish it.
I miss you and will always love you my Pyaari Badi Didi.
Radhey Radhey
~ Vishakha Patel, New Zealand, Youth
During 2000 Diwali, through good fortune I met Badi Didi. I felt I had met my devotional role model. Badi Didi’s captivating walk to me felt like she was gliding ever so gracefully on this mortal plane. Didi always welcomed us into her room and blessed us with so much association which I have appreciated so much over the years.
I would always wait by the door. One day Didi came to the door opened it and said “give the door a gentle push,if it is open come in”. Badi Didi’s smile and kindness always made me feel welcomed.
My role model to devotion is Badi Didi’s smile.Her precision was what always amazed me being on time to hall, her eye for detail with Shri Radha Krishna’s Shringar and the colour combinations in the hall. Her artistic eyes would glance here and there and make everything perfect.Didi inspired me to be a better devotee and strive to the ultimate goal.
Bari Didi will always be my role model on how to lead a life of service to Hari and Guru. In following Shri Maharajji’s teachings and applying them to her life by doing so she leads us to service. Didis grace on me will never be forgotten.
~ Deepika Patel, New Zealand
My sister with motherly affection.
You are my support on this journey towards Divine Love Consciousness.
Your guiding hand always there to nudge me in the right direction.
Your sweet smile, Your graceful glances, Your gliding walk, Your majestic poise fills with me with awe.
Your gentle reminders and gems keep me focused on our one-Hari Guru.
You are the example of selfless service and love.
You are the inspiration for this aspiring devotee.
Thank you! Thank you! Thank You!
Koti Koti Pranaam
~ Denesh Patel, New Zealand
Words cannot fully describe my luck to have had Bari Didi’s association over the years. Thank you, Shri Maharaj Ji for this rare and precious gift.
Every time I think of Bari Didi, I feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Bari Didi has been my lifeline, my inspiration and my role model. It was under Her influence that my heart opened up to a deeper understanding of Hari Guru seva and how to navigate the challenges of modern times.
At my lowest moments, when I felt undeserving and I struggled to forgive myself, it was Her unwavering support, Her kindness and patience which kept me going. Thank you, Bari Didi for Your love, for never giving up on me and for always looking at my potential rather than my shortcomings. I will forever be indebted to Our Pyari Bari Didi for all She has done for me. Her beautiful smile that speaks a thousand words is etched in my heart forever and will continue to be my guiding light on the path of Devotion. No time or distance can fade my memories with Bari Didi. Love you Bari Didi.
Jai Shri Radhey,
~ Mirela Martinas, Ireland
I only got to really experience Badi didi’s love after Shri Maharaj Ji’s descent to Golok. When Shri Maharaj Ji came to Radha Madhav Dham in 2005 and in 2007, I noticed that Badi Didi was always following Shri Maharaj Ji, ready to serve Him and taking His pictures and videos all the time. It was my first time meeting Shri Maharaj Ji and the Didis.
When I met Didi in Shri Kripalu Dham last time, she told me to meet them on zoom everyday, always respect everyone, and do not have ill feelings towards anyone. She reiterated the importance of Radhey breathing and feeling Shri Maharaj Ji is with us at all times. Badi didi always told us that our life is very short, so we have to hurry up and attain our goal. We took this very lightly so She showed it to us with Her exit.
Didi, I will miss You calling my name on zoom, Your beautiful smile, Your long wavy hair, Your scoldings, Your love and everything.
Saints never leave Braj Dham so I know that You are still with me. You are my model for selfless devotion to Hari and Guru and my guiding light. I love you Didi!
Priyanka Trivedi,
~ Houston, Texas, USA
The summer of 2022 was the most memorable experience of my life and also the last time I had face to face darshan of poojniya Badi Jiji. Badi Jiji always said that time is very less and to use every moment to do radhey nam jab. No one thought she would leave so suddenly. Now her divine words have become more prominent than ever.
Even though it is a sad moment for all, Badi Jiji always said to never lose faith or hope, as both Maharajji and Badi Jiji are always watching over us. Following Maharaj Ji’s schedule, Badi Jiji would come extra early to zoom in the morning to talk to everyone. Alongside the other divine didis, Badi Jiji would talk with all and ask when they are coming to meet them.
I will never forget the bright smile on Badi Jiji’s face as she called my name, her joyful laugh during games played in the aangan, and her proud beam when I told her about an accomplishment. She always encouraged me to do seva, offering everything to continue the mission of Maharajji. She helped me just like a mother. I remember her words for me to only focus on my studies and my devotion and to listen to Shri Maharaj Ji everyday. There are no words to describe the supreme Badi Jiji’s mercy, kindness, compassion, and love. With gratitude, I bow down to my lovely Badi Jiji.
Until next time,
Radhey Radhey
~ Ananya Cherukuri, Houston, Texas, USA.
Badi Didi, the embodiment of Divinity. I met our Divine Badi Didi in 1997, during my first visit to Shri Maharaji, in Mussoorie. Badi Didi instantly instilled in me a sense of belonging and embodied a grace beyond comprehension. Our beloved Mahasaki Gopi, an inspiration of love and serenity.
I had the privilege of washing Didi’s clothes. Once, in Vrindavan, I was sent to Badi Didi’s room to collect the laundry. Unaware of her presence, I entered and found her sitting in the middle of her bed, one leg gracefully crossed over the other, like in the elegant Ardha Matsyendrasana pose, Didi appeared to be immersed in divine contemplation. She smiled at me, leaving me in absolute awe.
Badi Didi demonstrated the true essence of Sewa, always anticipating Shri Maharaji’s needs with her ever-watchful eyes. When our Shri Maharaj ji physically left this earth our Didi’s took us all under their shelter. Badi Didi would humbly guide us, reminding us to do our sadhana, as time is short. When feeling insecure or devotion wavered, Badi Didi’s beautiful smile and gentle touch would restore our faith.
Badi Didi continued to lead Shri Maharaj’s projects with her tireless work and dedication towards his charitable missions, recognized with multiple awards. Didi would personally hand out items to the needy, the compassion in her eyes, the gratitude and joy in the faces of those she helped, said it all. Badi Didi touched each and every soul with her Divine grace.
During the Kirti Mandir opening, Badi Didi gave so much of herself, dancing joyfully and singing Kirtan on stage. On her 70th birthday, Manjhali Didi and Chhoti Didi adorned her with malas. With all her kindness, Badi Didi walked past me and placed those malas in my hands.
We are truly indebted, fortunate souls to have been given so much Prashad, from lollypops, fruits to useful gifts to cherish. I don’t think I fully realize the significance at the time.
Badi Didi’s sudden physical departure, we are going through so many emotions, disbelieve, sadness, mourning, gratitude and joy at the privilege of having her in our lives. Even these last moments serving as a selfless reminder of life’s impermanence, reinforcing her words that time is short and we must dedicate ourselves to God and Guru, we must do our sadhana.
Badi Didi’s inspiration and grace continue to drive me to work harder and make her happy. Her presence a divine blessing, and I pray to humbly keep remembering her words as a guiding light in my life.
Radhe Radhe
~ Heather Dutt, New Zealand.
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