My first memory of Badi Didi takes me back to 2005, when I first met Didi—my beautiful, loving, kind and infinitely gracious Badi Didi.
It was a life-changing moment for me, having just met Shri Maharaj Ji—my eternal master. Overwhelmed by the enormity of this meeting, I was overcome with emotion. It was in that situation that Badi Didi, with her tender kindness, came to my side. She sat me close to her charan, calming me without saying a word. Even as she engaged with other devotees in conversation, her loving gaze would fall on me every so often, reassuring and comforting me with the depth of her compassion.
When someone asked Didi which place she loved most during her travels, she responded without hesitation: “There is nothing more beautiful in this world than our Gurudham, Mangarh.” At the time, I had never visited Mangarh, nor heard or read Shri Maharaj Ji’s philosophy. Didi’s words kindled an intense curiosity and a deep yearning in me to one day experience this divine place.
In November 2005, when I finally visited Shri Kripalu Dham Mangarh, Didi’s words came alive with meaning. I witnessed with my own eyes the endless beauty of our Guru Dham, experiencing first-hand the sanctity and serenity of this divine land.
From that moment on, Badi Didi became a guiding light in my life. Her loving smile, her simple yet profound wisdom, and her recounting of Shri Maharaj Ji’s leelas left an indelible mark on my heart. She had a unique way of explaining the nuances of Shri Maharaj Ji’s teachings. Didi’s narration carried the warmth and understanding of someone who had lived the essence of those eternal lessons.
Through stories of her own life, Didi inspired us to embrace our lives with gratitude and devote ourselves to sewa with humility. Badi Didi didn’t just speak of love and service; she embodied them. Her love extended to everyone she met, and her spirit of giving was unparalleled.
Badi Didi was a gifted artist. Her exquisite paintings brought the leelas of divine Vrindavan to life, enabling us to visualize their profound beauty. Didi’s elegance, radiance, and boundless love evoked the image of the divine sakhis of Thakur Ji and Kishori Ji. Badi didi personified their divine presence. The experience of simply being around Didi was electrifying, leaving everyone feeling profoundly connected to the divine.
Didi’s leadership was equally inspiring. The construction and opening of Prem Bhawan, Vrindavan, Shri Kirti Mandir, Barsana, and Shri Guru Dham Bhakti Mandir, Mangarh were accomplished with unmatched grace and ease. Though she made the construction of these projects seem effortless, their grandeur and magnificence spoke volumes of Didi’s vision and divinity.
To me, being around Badi Didi felt like being around my Pyari Amma. She always reciprocated my feelings with the same warmth and compassion that I experienced in Shri Amma Ji. Despite her surgery and hospitalizations and even during the COVID-19 pandemic, Didi gave us her darshan, disregarding her own frailty, recognizing each of us behind our masks and offering words so personal that it felt like she saw directly into our hearts.
Through her countless acts of care and devotion, Badi Didi personified the spirit of selfless service. She nourished us not just with delicious food and sweets but equally with her love. Her evening rounds in her car to the main kitchen, ensuring we received prasad with her own hands, was a testament to her nurturing motherly love. Her daily Zoom sessions brought us closer to Shri Maharaj Ji, while her picnics to Shri Maharaj Ji’s school and spiritually significant places filled us with reverence and wonder as she lovingly explained their importance. She inspired us to engage in acts of sewa, teaching us that sewa is an expression of pure devotion.
Badi Didi’s life was one of unwavering devotion to her Guru, a life of sacrifice, humility, and inspiration. Her every action propelled us forward on the path of bhakti, constantly reminding us that time is fleeting and every moment is precious.
Words fall short of capturing what Badi Didi meant to me. Her absence leaves a huge void in my heart that will forever ache, but that very pain is a gift—a reflection of her kindness and her way of encouraging us to advance with urgency, purpose, and unwavering passion on our spiritual path.
Pyari Badi Didi, I am eternally grateful to you for granting me the utmost honour and privilege of calling you my Badi Didi. You will forever remain in my heart.
I love you, Badi Didi
~Yours Ever, Apra Sekhon Toronto, Canada
Always smiling;
Always leading by example;
Reminding us about Hari and Guru;
Giving us so much love that we cannot go anywhere else, and being the shining light that never disappears. You will always be the ultimate mother who just provides love and guidance that will forever glow in our hearts and minds. Thank you for staying here with us for however long you did; we know your real love is Maharaj. You also taught us that time is limited and with your loss we can Never Forget.🙏in gratitude, love you.
~ Thank you, Badi Didi, Deepa Talwar
In her presence, love flowed pure.
Her embrace touched my soul that time cannot erase.
Her smile and divine glances held hope that my path may align.
Through Zoom, her blessings made my day. Her words like stars guide my way.
Now her absence echoes the truth of fleeting life. Her ascension is a call to rise.
~ My Pyari Badi Didi, Pooja Chaudhary
Badi didi was the sweetest, caring, and loving person I have ever met in my life. She gave everyone unconditional love and attention. Every single time I had come to any of the Dhams, the way that she lovingly greeted me and held my hands felt like divine motherly love. Once during keertan, I was just sitting, not doing roopdhyan like the sinful soul that I am, and she made sure that I was doing sadhana always. She always put emphasis on Radhey Breathing and remembering Yugal Sarkar wherever you go. I feel very fortunate to have been in the association of such a divine personality, and I will always be in debt to her. All the memories that I have accumulated over the years will stay with me for the rest of my life, as they are filled with love. I will always miss my pyari badi didi, but am happy knowing that she’s in Golok Dham with Shri Radha Krishna now.
~ Radhey Radhey, Krishna Bhagat
Words cannot describe the amount of love and grace you have bestowed upon me. From worrying about my health to my sadhana, I will never forget your caring nature. When I won my daily prize, you told me to never stop loving Maharaji and to continuously do my sadhana. When I asked to change my name, you told me that my name meant that I only live for Maharaji, Radha, and Krishna. When I had a stomach problem, you made sure that I could eat and gave me prashad straight from your hands. These memories will always be with me,they will remind me how such a sinful soul like myself was given the grace of God to have you as my mother and my didi. You have done so much for us all. You’ve treated everyone as you own and no one ever felt the absence of love in your divine presence. You made sure that I all took care of myself and I did well in my studies to please Maharaji. You spoke so sweetly to me and at times firm when I was careless of my sadhana. Each and everyone one of us can attest to your loving and caring nature. No matter what, you would constantly remind us “svash svash se Radhey nam judo” and that we will never know when the moment of death will come. You were our rock, but even though you have left us, you still continue to glorify our Maharaji. I miss you so much Didi, but I know that you are with our Papa. Jai Shri Radhey
~ My Pyari Badi Didi, Jiya Bhagat
My mother my everything, you have graced me and my family with so much love and grace that words can not describe. I will always miss that amazing hug, looking at me with so much love, beautiful smile, gentle touch, beautiful gaze towards each and everyone in your presence, a beautiful laugh, your amazing walk, pyaar se Radhey Radhey bol na, always emphasizing to love Maharaj Ji, practice Radhey breathing with every breath many more things. Looking at you or your picture always brings a smile when I’m overwhelmed. One thing you always mentioned “Maharaj Ji Hame Thali Parosh ke De Gaye Hai, kana to ham ko hi Padega (Maharaj Ji has taught us how to do Sadhna in order to attain Radha Krishna or divine love). Always keep reminding to do sadhana and not to do laparvahi. Coming up with Radha Govind Geet and Shyama Shyama Geet Challenges to inspire us to do sadhana. Pyaars se samjana about anything would ask or clearing our doubts. Wo pyaar se aaaaa karna zoom pe when we offer you “sabe with kala naamk, cucumber and coffee. Badi Maa you will be missed greatly in my everyday life and I will forever be very grateful and thankful for your Love and Kripa.
~ My Badi Didi, Vaishali Bhagat
She is my mother, my sister and my inspiration. She has always made me feel very special. I felt she was always looking for me in crowd, which was an indescribable feeling. In my entire life I have never felt such emotion. Everytime I came to any Dham, she would always say “Mera beta Aagaya” (my son has come) this memory will always stay with me. On my first trip to Kirti Mandir she told me to come do darshan with her of Lali and mentioned “Lali Ko Apnae Dil Me Bitha Lo”. whenever she saw me in the back row or line, she would call me to come sit in front with her! The way she always looked at me I felt she is gracing me with so much love that I didn’t deserve. I felt I saw Maharaj Ji in Badi Didi. Badi Didi I miss you so much and hope I had more time to spend with you.
~ Hari Bhagat
A picture paints a thousand words but it will take a thousand pictures to describe and reveal the powerful, multifaceted personality of our dearest Badi Didi.
As the greatest Devotee of Shree Maharaj Ji She seemed to be the seamless extension of Him and supplemented Him as our ‘everything’ when He ascended.
The name Badi Didi became symbolic of the embodiment of grace, beauty and love personified. A compassionate, gentle soul, always gracing, always giving, always comforting, always feeding, always hugging, always responsive to everyone’s needs.
She represented perfection in all that She did. She was visionary and strategic, She excelled in leadership, time management, structural development, philanthropy, spiritual philosophy, devotion and worship, the art of singing, playing music, decorating, painting, photography and even in dressing.
Her smile was bewildering and embracing and infectious.
She walked like a model on the runway when she stepped into a room. So photogenic, Bollywood could not come close in matching her poise.
Badi Didi automatically adopted the role of Divine Mother to all she encountered through her wisdom in counselling, coaching, and consoling. She filled the void to complete us by pouring her love into our hearts.
Through Her greatest gifts, she continued to sustain us as she picked up the mantle after Shree Maharaj Ji ascension. Our lives were empty and meaningless before we had the association of Shree Maharaj Ji. Badi Didi reinforced the importance of making Him the focus of our lives, encouraged that we give our hearts ONLY to Him and do continuous Sadhana and Seva. Her fundamental wish was for the devotees to revere Shree Maharaj Ji the way She revered Him.
Dearest Badi Didi, to say ‘We miss you’ is an understatement. Your departure created a void. We have grown accustomed to associating with three Didis, now there are two. However, just as we grieve with every pore in our bodies, we flood every cell of our being with your unforgettable love.
Badi Didi, I will always remember how I longed for your embracing welcome at Guru Dham and how I dreaded the tearful, regrettable goodbyes, when I will say ‘this is home, I will see you again when I return.’
Badi Didi, You embodied love, you exuded love, you channelled love, you captured our hearts with love, you simply lived LOVE.
I shall bottle your love and take a sip of it each day.
…. And when Badi Didi is revealed to the world, Shree Maharaj Ji devotees, with reverence, would exult Her glories by shouting out ‘We experienced Her’!
~ Dearest Badi Didi, Indra Latchu, Toronto, Canada
Words can’t do justice to describe what didi has meant to me. She reinstalled the teachings of guru. During covid she inspired us not to give up by giving us guidance for our sadhana. Because of her examples and dedication I have started my own daily sadhana with morning aarti(s) an 10 minutes speech by guru, then kirtan in the afternoon a 1.12 hrs sadhana w a speech by guru. She has shown us that we should always put guru and God 1st and do sadhana today, now not tomorrow. When amma left, we had SMJ, when SMJ left we had badi didi, now we are left with choti and manjhali didi as our guiding light to our divine family..
~ Badi didi, Rupa Angad
I will always be grateful for the love and affection Badi Didi showered us with over the years.
Her gentle smile early in the morning would always brighten the rest of the day. I will never forget one incident when Maharaj Ji was in Dayton in 2005. I was driving Badi Didi to a house visit and it was raining heavily. It was difficult to follow Maharaj Ji’s car. Didi became restless when she could not see Maharaj Ji’s car even for a few seconds and instructed me to always stay behind his car. This occurrence touched my heart so much and taught me that we must always follow and love Maharaj Ji at all times. Badi Didi, I will miss your spiritual guidance and sisterly love.
~ Ram Sharma, Dayton, OH, USA
To describe Badi Didi with words is impossible. She has been a huge sense of inspiration to us with her peaceful nature, everlasting charm, and sweet smiles. She motivated all of us by simply
practicing Maharaj Ji’s philosophy through both her words and actions. We have seen her motherly love with our own eyes in how she nurtured Shivani (our daughter) with tenderness and kindness. Her presence, memories, and love she bestowed upon us will always be cherished. She will forever be in our hearts. Badi Didi, your love and encouragement will be our guide moving forward. We love you and miss you immensely.
~ Krishna Sharma, Dayton, OH, USA
I first met Badi Didi in 1995 and was in awe of her beauty, grace, gentleness and
absolute love and dedication to Shri Maharajji. It is easy to love Badi Didi, her
love, caring and guidance is always evident, she uses every opportunity to
guide, teach and help aspiring sadaks on the spiritual path.
My time on zoom calls with Badi Didi will forever be etched in my memory, having
Badi Didi call my name filled my heart with love and reverence for our beloved Badi
Didi, the best feeling of the day.
Badi Didi loved us all as a mother, disciplined and counseled as a sister and
taught us to love Guru and Radha Krishna as a strict teacher.
I love you Badi Didi and miss you so very much.
Forever Yours
~ Goomatie Baboolal (Trinidad)
Where do I even begin? Badi Ji Ji wasn’t just a part of my world she was my world. While Shri Maharaj Ji found us, it was Badi Didi who showed us how to walk the path. She didn’t just teach us how to do seva, she showed us how to do it with love, humility, and pure devotion. Right up until her final breath, she continued to inspire us, guide us, and give us chances to serve Shri Maharaj Ji. She was a true beacon of hope a light that never flickered, never dimmed. In moments of doubt, confusion, or hardship, she was my refuge.
Just one glance at her smile or the gentle way she would say “Radhey Radhey” could wash away every worry in an instant. Her love was like no other. It wasn’t conditional or dependent on me being “perfect.” Even when I made mistakes or lost my way, she never turned her back on me. She listened with patience, spoke with compassion, and somehow, with just a few words, gave me the strength to keep going. It felt like she was always shielding me from harm, as though her love itself had become a protective force around me. Her grace was my armor, and it never failed me. Now that she’s no longer with us in physical form, the ache of separation feels unbearable. But even in this pain, there is meaning. Her love and lessons are woven into our hearts. I hold on to the warmth of her presence during those Zoom calls, the joy of hearing her call our names, and that tender, familiar “Radhey Radhey” that always felt like being wrapped in a mother’s embrace.
These moments weren’t just experiences they were glimpses into her Bhakti, reflections of the love she lived and shared so freely with us. Her physical form may be gone, but her teachings and grace are eternal. Her love wasn’t fleeting or momentary. It was a seed she planted deep within each of us. I pray that we continue to feel her presence in every step we take, that we recognize the profound gift of her grace, and that we work even harder to follow the path she so patiently showed us. Badi Didi, words will never be enough to express my love for you. May this ache of separation only draw us closer to Shri Maharaj Ji and to you.
~ Rajib J K
Bari Didi loving called Ji Ji is a blessing to everyone in this world. And she is also my whole world and I cannot live without her. Moreover, she is the one who makes me understand things sometimes when I cannot see them clearly. I met Ji Ji in the year 1996 in Seva Kunj, Mussorrie and to this day, I still feel that Ji Ji is my mother, my sister, and my best friend. From loving and caring to loyal and dependable; the list of words has become endless and never-ending to describe my Ji Ji. Ji Ji has motivated me to love Shri Maharaj Ji. She has given me the courage to converse with Shri Maharaj Ji in whatever little Hindi I knew. She has also motivated me in the path of bhakti with unwavering, unconditional and selfless love to the lotus feet of Shri Maharaj Ji. Ji Ji not even for a fraction of a moment did she ever look at any one of my faults. With the twinkle of her eyes and a charming beautiful smile, Ji Ji gave everything straight from her heart. Ji Ji has given me that sense of belonging and identity. In the year 1992, my Ji Ji gave me the name ‘Shaligram’ and then in 1996, I met with her ‘ face- to – face’. Ji Ji- those loving and sweet moments along with those captivating smiles and hugs have become the immediate and instant medicine to all my pains.
Ji Ji has a very unique personality which is not seen commonly in today’s world. She never judges anyone for his deeds. With such a warm, friendly, and out of this world personality, Ji Ji can brighten up the room wherever she goes. Moreover, she is very creative. Ji Ji has a solution to almost anything and everything and she has the special talent to find easy ways to motivate me to walk on the path of bhakti. I always ask for her advice to simplify any kind of work. All in all, I adore my Ji Ji a lot.
Ji Ji is an essential part of me and she plays a pivotal role in my life. She is my support system and inspiration. She always helps me to make important decisions and she guides me when I need it the most. With her presence, I tend to not feel lonely and fearful. Moreover, she loves me unconditionally and she is always there for me. Ji Ji is an early riser and utilises the full 24 hours in the day to serve Shri Maharaj Ji. Ji Ji is certainly a perfect sister who is caring and shows concern for others. She even feels sad when you are hurt or unwell. In addition to the spiritual upliftment of all aspiring souls, she aims at serving humanity as well. Ji Ji spares no pains in serving the suffering, the sick, the marginalised and impoverished citizens throughout India. Every person across JKP ashrams throughout the entire world has great affection for her. She has a very charismatic personality and she wins the hearts of everyone.
~ Vivek Ragoonanan – Shaligram
It is said that autumn is a time of evanescence, a time for goodbyes and letting go, when things come to an end- summer, warmth and the greenery around us all seem to evanesce giving way to colder, harsher weather. This appeared to come true on a November morning when our beloved Badi Didi (as Dr. Vishakha Tripathi ji, the oldest daughter of Jagadguru Kripalu ji Maharaj has always been addressed) ascended to her divine abode, leaving behind a vast congregation of followers shocked with disbelief. A saint in her own right as she is believed to be the descension of Vishakha mahasakhi (one of the eight most intimate associates of Shri Radha Rani), she never alluded to her power or greatness, preferring simply to be the self-effacing daughter of her divinely, illustrious father, Jagadguru Kripalu ji Maharaj, the fifth original Jagadguru in history. She was content in just shepherding us and showing us the right way of serving the Guru, without any expectation of adulation or worship.
My mind raced back to another autumn day, over two decades back when fortune had smiled on me through a meeting with Badi Didi. Her beautiful visage (often drawing parallels with Vishakha sakhi’s, described in scriptures as having a lightening complexion) and aura
held me in awe and I recall experiencing hesitation in approaching her, unlike many other senior devotees around me. It was my first visit to the ashram to pay my respects in person to my Guru, Shri Maharaj ji, whose teachings I had been following for a few years while living abroad. She immediately sensed my hesitation and approached me, enveloping me in an embrace and murmuring prophetically that I would soon change my demeanor when I realized how intimately familiar I would become in due course with her and her family.
Indeed, over the next few years, Badi Didi took me on as her own, guiding me on the smallest of issues that plagued my mundane existence and magically transported me from my residence overseas to be firmly by her side. I did not hesitate to move back to India on her insistence as she always seemed to know what was most appropriate for every soul.
While setting back in India was not easy, one glimpse of her effulgent appearance and radiant personality appeared to dissolve the most difficult problems. Every minute spent by her side would be a lesson in diligent focus on Hari-Guru and building desire for service or Sewa. She would always encourage devotees gathered around her to learn how to do better Sewa, mildly chastising them for mistakes made due to carelessness. One incident comes to mind when Badi Didi caught me in a somber mood, feeling dislocated in my new challenging environment and narrated to me how she herself had to navigate an unstable vagabond childhood as she moved from one household to another, often between cities during a school year. As she grew up, it was remarkable how she never pondered on the inconveniences she went through, despite her divine status. Instead, she always exhorted everyone around to be humble, simple and willingly adapt to circumstances. Sacrifice and humility were the cornerstones she lived by and inspired us to follow.
I have always had this image of Badi Didi being the epitome of perfection and cheerfulness, a quality of Vishakha Mahasakhi, as described in the scriptures. She would also meticulously select fabrics and colors to clothe Shri Maharaj Ji, Amma ji and Yugal Sarkar, akin to manifesting her Vishakha Mahasakhi characteristics. Her generosity and simplicity were evident in the manner in which she would solicit the opinion of those around her in an effort to make them feel included in every activity, fostering a sense of belonging to this divine family that we somehow fortuitously had met.
Badi Didi’s superlative artistic abilities were clearly evident in her paintings during her youth that inspired devotion towards Yugal Sarkar and Shri Maharaj Ji. Her painstaking efforts to capture her father and Guru in action through pictures and video clips have not only resulted in a truly vast repository of memories for all of us to dip into, it has created an inviting, intimate world for the future generations. Every act of hers would be geared towards serving the Guru, a very tall standard providing inspiration to all, although impossible to emulate. The scriptures declare that divine love is limitless and indeed, Badi Didi exemplified it through her generosity of sharing whether it was her love, wisdom or time, every moment of her stay on earth. Shri Maharaji ji couldn’t possibly have given us a better role model and guide.
The scriptures say that God Himself descends on earth to reveal His absolute blissful nature through His leelas and to illuminate the path of Bhakti or devotion, which is the essence of our Hindu scriptures. During these divine descensions, it is also true that He brings with Him divine personalities as associates who can perfectly embody divine characteristics and serve as a guide or role model of exemplary service. Badi Didi truly personified the essence of Bhakti- Sadhana and Sewa. She constantly reminded us to chant the name of Radhe with every breath as well as do loving roopdhyan meditation. She would also remind us that Sewa with loving remembrance of the Guru was above Sadhana in this age and would constantly urge us to do Sewa in every possible way. After Shri Maharaj Ji’s ascension to Golok, she comforted and gave hope to millions plunged in grief and gave them a new sense of direction to progress on the spiritual path as shown by our Gurudev. Under her able stewardship as President of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishad, she steered the course to achieve new heights of excellence and growth. The organization continues to achieve unsurpassed glory in its mission of charitable and spiritual outreach to millions of people globally.
Yes, evanescence is a farewell but on that gloomy day of November, I believe while that swan of grace that we knew as Badi Didi evanesced, she also took with her some of our trials and tribulations and somehow reduced our karmic debt, because that is what she did best- quietly, gracefully leading us with her incandescent personality out of the darkness and into the soft, golden light of devotion. A poignant symbolism that was not lost on me is that our own Vishakha Mahasakhi, considered another form of the river, Yamuna decided to vanish in its vicinity.
It’s really challenging to write a tribute for someone who meant so much that it’s impossible to be able to comprehend. While her lessons of Sewa and Sadhana can never be forgotten, her gentle smile, sacrifice and courage will continue to lead our way as an effulgent pole star for eons to come. For her role in my own personal journey, undoubtedly, I would remain indebted to her until eternity since the fortunate association with distinguished divine personalities like her is extremely rare.
~ Touched by the light- A personal tribute to Badi Didi, Jaishree Sirnivasan
Your golden complexion glows like the first light of dawn, a soft beacon for seekers yearning for divine love’s eternal embrace. Your shy demeanour, delicate yet powerful, radiates a quiet strength that inspires hearts to bow in love and service to Hari Guru.
The first time I beheld you, it felt as if I had reunited with my eternal didi, a soul woven from threads of selfless devotion, sent to awaken love for Guru in all who encounter her. Truly, didi, you are a living embodiment of selfless, exclusive love—a shimmering reflection of our Gurudev’s grace.
It is said that the presence of a saint ignites an unquenchable love for Hari Guru. In your company, this truth unfolds effortlessly. Simply seeing you, hearing your divine words, or feeling the light of your presence sets the fountain of devotion flowing in the depths of the heart. Your deep, yearning eyes, filled with unshaken longing for the Divine Master, speak of a love so profound it overflows, touching all who dare to gaze upon them.
Didi, you reached down to embrace a fallen soul like me, wrapping me in the warmth of your compassion. Like a tender mother, you guided me with love, showing me a path away from the chains of Maya. You saw not my flaws but my struggle, and with boundless patience, you sought only to uplift me.
How can words contain the gratitude I feel for having shared even a moment in your divine association? The memories you have gifted me are treasures I hold close in the deepest chambers of my heart. I pray to live by your wisdom, to make you proud, and to walk steadfastly towards our beloved Gurudev.
May I one day bring joy to you, just as your presence has brought life to my soul. Thank you, dearest didi, for your unwavering love and for showing me the way back to Him.
~ Our Dearest Badi Didi, Forever indebted, A seeker
In our daily lives, we believe that we love our family and friends with selflessness and integrity. We believe that our material love knows no bounds. Reality is, we haven’t even the slightest idea of what true, selfless, love is.
Badi Didi is, and was the epitome of selflessness. She loved every person she met. Badi Didi only pushed us devotees closer to god. She taught us to act with grace and kindness as Shri Krishna resides in every soul. Her constant reminders to feel the presence of Hari Guru at all times, provided a real life example of what true devotion encapsulates.
Badi Didi’s playfulness and kindness is unmatched. She treated everyone like a child and a friend; providing guidance at every obstacle one should encounter. No child was ever left behind. From sharing snacks with devotees, to organizing distributions, Badi Didi only gave.
There are no words that can describe the personality Badi Didi has etched in every devotee’s heart. There are no words to describe the impact She has had on so many lives. There are no words to describe the immense loss this entire world has been faced with.
The only words that remain are those of salvation; May we make use of this human life as taught to us by Maharaj Ji and Badi Didi. Maybe we use what little time we have left, to love god and to surrender to the lotus feet of Hari Guru.
~ Jai Shri Radhe ,Madhoori Amirtharanjan
I first met Badi Didi in Shri Kripalu Dham Mangarh during a Guru Purnima Sadhana Shivir in summer 2022. I had seen Her in many of Shri Maharaj Ji’s videos before. I had also heard about Her from other devotees. But seeing Her in front of me and meeting Her in person had its own charms. I didn’t get to meet Badi Didi face-to-face immediately, but the energy I felt when She entered the room was just overwhelming. The way She looked at Shri Maharaj Ji, with great devotion and veneration, is the sight I would never forget. I also saw that Badi Didi interacted with everyone with genuine care and concern, as a mother would with her child. She would also put Her hand on their shoulders, showing the love She had for them. When I got to talk to Her for the first time, it was as if She had known me for ages. She was no stranger to me, and I was no stranger to Her. There are some emotions that are just inexpressible, but all I can say is that “I mattered to this larger-than-life personality that has improved the lives of so many.” Below is what I wrote after coming back from Shri Kripalu Dham that first summer –
सुनेथेचर्चेबहुतमनगढ़धामकेहमने,
भक्तिभवनकीसाधनाऔरदीदीकीपिकनिकके।
आईजोमैंश्रीमहाराजजीकेभक्तिधाममें,
पाईसिर्फकृपाहीकृपावोअधाधुंधदरबारमें।
With every interaction since then, in-person or on zoom, I have come to appreciate Her presence in my life more and more. When I used to hear the stories of Shri Krishna, Radha Rani, and the gopis of Braj, I would wish I was there to witness their pastimes. I now realize that I was given a chance to not only witness their pastimes in this descension but to participate in them as well.
~ Meghna Trivedi
When first we met, her voice so very kind,
“What’s your name?” she asked, her eyes did shine.
“Ishan,” I said, and my brother replied,
“Keshav,” with pride, standing by my side.
“Keshav, such a lovely name,” she exclaimed,
“But tell me, what is Ishan’s meaning proclaimed?”
Mummy smiled and softly said,”It is another name for Shiv, who is known to forgive.”
She paused, and said,”I’ll name him myself”
“I’ll name him myself”!!
The next day, She gifted me a name, making me whole, while at the same time blessing my soul.
“Your name will be Madhav,” she declared,
“Keshav Madhav Govind Bol!” she shared.
“Madhav, what a soothing sound,”
In her words, my heart was found.
In that moment, her love shone through,
Accepting me, a bond so true.
Her care, her wisdom, a mother’s grace,
With every word, she lit up the space.
Three short years, yet deeply profound,
Her compassion, like roots in a sacred ground.
Badi Jiji, your love did bless,
Your memory fills my heart’s recess.
We will miss you, your warmth, your light,
Your care like the sun, forever bright.
In my name, your love shall remain,
Your love shines on, a timeless flame.
~ Badi Jiji, Madhav Trivedi, USA (Youth)
Shrimad Sadguru Sarkar Ki Jai
It is very hard to write about Badi Didi, because what can you say about someone for whom you have such personal feelings? So much of it cannot and should not be expressed.
As with Maharaj Ji and Amma Ji, Badi Didi had a specific and different relationship with each one of us, both internally and externally. The internal relationship will continue to evolve as we continue on our path; the external relationship will form the basis for our remembrance and roopdhyan for the rest of our lives. Maharaj Ji’s way of teaching was to invite everyone into his divine family, so that we would form those bonds of attachment with His divine associates. In this way we would experience for ourselves that bhakti is the path of love and attachment, and we would walk the path naturally, without even knowing that we were doing bhakti. How typical of Maharaj Ji to come up with such a beautiful and ingenious way of teaching! Badi Didi was the main support player in this marvelous leela. She played her part perfectly, constantly encouraging satsangees to come closer to Maharaj Ji, tirelessly giving of herself so that we would feel comfortable in satsang and continue to push forward. Through her love and support she would constantly bring us close to her; through her inspiration we were effortlessly drawn into Maharaj Ji’s divine family.
Badi Didi had many extraordinary qualities. When I first met her, upstairs in the old residence, I looked into her deep, black eyes and I felt I was falling into them. I felt like I had been reunited with my long-lost big sister, as if I had been wandering in the wilderness for ages, and now at last I was home with my family. This was amazing because where I came from, Indian culture and spiritual life was a complete unknown. I had no language, no one to introduce me, and no credentials at all to have any relationship with her. But I had come to Mangarh to meet Maharaj Ji, and she was His servant. And so she welcomed me like a long-lost brother – a brother who had been a stranger and knew nothing – and with total commitment she helped and guided me on my path.
I will always remember her as a luminous divine presence, full of grace, sensitivity, intelligence, wit, insight, humility and good humour. She had a magnetic energy which you could not turn away from, with a super-human ability to form emotional connections with Maharaj Ji’s ever-expanding family. As with Maharaj Ji, just having her darshan felt like a spiritual goal had been fulfilled. And like Maharaj Ji, her nature was only to give, give and give. With these attributes, putting her own pain, preferences and comfort aside, she dedicated herself completely to His service. Sometimes it would be painful to see how much she was giving of herself, putting up with all of our nonsense when she herself was physically struggling, laughing away our faults, ever-mindful of the fragility of the ego and our inherent selfishness. For those who were close to her, she would address their faults directly, sometimes fiercely. For others, she continued Maharaj Ji’s work of constant encouragement and persuasion, leading by example to show us all that the path to God is a beautiful and loving experience.
We will all miss Badi Didi terribly, as with Maharaj Ji and Amma Ji. We are all so lucky to have had a deep and personal relationship with this great and beautiful Saint, who practically and tirelessly guided us towards the highest goal.
~ Anonymous
Joining any new community is bound to have its challenges, particularly when that community is dedicated to the work of genuine spiritual growth. In our satsang, to deal with these challenges, Shri Maharaj Ji has ingeniously created a system in which satsangees can be immersed in a family environment, becoming part of His divine family and transferring their sense of love and belonging from the material
world to the divine world. In this divine family, they can grow comfortably together, bound by ties of love and deep acceptance, so that the challenges of spiritual development can be softened by the balm of shared experience with divine personalities, experiencing their divine association, compassion, and support. To bring about this divine plan, Shri Maharaj Ji brought with Him a very special divine personality whose role was to connect with satsangees, acting as a perfect role model who would guide, nurture and inspire souls to participate in His satsang as part of His divine family, as their big sister encouraging and supporting them to move ever closer to God and Guru.
This divine personality was His daughter Vishakha, who we knew as our Badi Didi. Her contribution to Shri Maharaj Ji’s satsang was immeasurable. By the power of her personality, the strength of her example, and her divine nature through which, like Maharaj Ji, she was able to work inexhaustibly to give of herself, she guided and inspired countless souls to move through the challenges of spiritual life and come closer to their goal.
I met Badi Didi before I met Maharaj Ji, and meeting her was something I had never experienced before. As soon as I came face to face with her, I was amazed at her energy – her divine radiance and glow, her positivity and joy, the depth of her compassion and understanding, her ability to connect. I was not alone in being deeply moved by Badi Didi’s power of connection; for satsangees she was the one they could turn to for spiritual and personal guidance, as well as emotional support, a role she took on even more fully after the departure of Amma Ji.
When Maharaj Ji departed we all wondered what was going to happen to our satsang. We feared that the organisation may lose its way without Him being physically with us. But Didis immediately committed themselves fully to continuing His satsang in the way He wanted - with positivity and practicality in all things, an unfailing sense of wit and intelligence, and a great sense of fun. Didis extended their family atmosphere to everyone without exception, so that everyone could benefit from their divine presence. As time progressed, Badi Didi took the lead in guiding the satsang into establishing Maharaj Ji’s legacy: by leading the distribution of Maharaj Ji’s philosophy via social media, increasing the scope of charitable distributions, expanding all the three ashrams and guiding ashram life for Maharaj Ji’s children living there, and completing Maharaj Ji’s divine projects, including leading the development of His museum.
In all of these initiatives, Badi Didi acted only for the good of the souls who came to her. Just like Maharaj Ji, she did nothing for herself – her sole activity was to give of herself tirelessly to encourage and help souls on their journey to God. We all have our individual relationship with Badi Didi, and she was so, so precious to all of us. But no matter how close we were to her and how painful her loss is to us, it cannot compare to the loss felt by Chhoti Didi and Manjhuli Didi. Among the Didis, she was the ringleader and the boss, and their beloved Jiji. They have lost so much, and yet even now, in the wake of her loss, they are eagerly waiting to connect with us again, always yearning to fulfil Maharaj Ji’s mission to guide the world to the divine love of God. Let us be truly thankful for this most wonderful gift of Maharaj Ji – to provide all of us, who do not deserve it, with such great Saints that would give their lives for our benefit.
~ Anonymous
Throughout my life as an aspiring devotee of Shri Maharaji Ji, I have encountered numerous individuals who left a lasting impact on my mind. Among the many people I have crossed paths with, the person I adore the most is undoubtedly my Bari Didi. I met Bari Didi in Mussoorie, Seva Kunj, 1996. Without a doubt I realized she was not only the most significant figure in my life but also a source of unwavering love, wisdom, and inspiration. Bari Didi was a real mother figure to me. Her cheerful disposition and boundless happiness have illuminated my life creating an environment filled with laughter and warmth. Through the ups and downs of life, Bari Didi unconditional support and love have been a source of strength for me, providing a stable foundation which I rely on.
My Bari Didi was the epitome of patience and warmth. Her virtues shone brightly, and her patience knew no limits. Even when I repeatedly said,“Meeti Meeti Ta Ta, Meeti Meeti love you Ji Ji ,” Bari didi gave me the most infectious smile that captivated every pore of my being. Bari didi was never angered with my silly words. Her sensitivity and warmheartedness have been a source of comfort throughout my life. I recalled countless occasions when she offered solace and guidance, always willing to listen and at times scolded me so lovingly with her eyes flooded with only grace and love. Bari Didi always reminded me that life should be lived with a purpose and strive to attain our goal of God realization. Through her love and dedication to selfless service to humanity and spirituality, my life was transformed. Bari Didi strengthened my ability to love God and Guru and embrace the path of Bhakti. She inspired and motivated me to grow spiritually without any barriers. Bari Didi made an indelible impact in my life and also to millions. Her beautiful gait, elegance and hearty laughter will forever be embedded in my heart. Bari Didi has left me with countless memories to nourish my soul.
~NALINI RAGOONANAN
In loving memory of my divine God sister, whose light now shines brightly beyond this world. Though Badi Didi has departed our earthly presence, her spirit remains intertwined with all who were blessed to know her.
Our Badi Didi was the beacon of compassion, grace, love, and wisdom, a reflection of divine love in human form. Badi Didi’s heart was a sanctuary of kindness, always offering solace and encouragement to all. Every sacrifice she made came from a place of unconditional love. She gave herself it all in ways that words often fail to capture. Badi Didi nurtured us, guided us, and believed in us when we didn’t believe in ourselves.
Badi Didi’s laughter was like music, her words like a prayer, and her actions always filled with a purpose, seemed to carry the very essence of grace. Her energy lives on in the lessons she imparted, in the strength she inspired. Her presence was a rare gift, where her legacy is etched into the fabric of our lives. Badi Didi taught us the true meaning of selflessness to God and the Guru. Her love was quiet, yet powerful, leaving an everlasting mark on our hearts and a ripple that will spread throughout generations to come.
Badi Didi, the world is different without you. In your memory, may we honour not just the person you were, but the divine spark you carried, the spark that now, through us, continues to shine. Your laughter will echo in our hearts forever, and your voice will continue to guide us. My we honour you by living our lives full of love for God and Guru and kindness just as you taught us. You were- and will always be our greatest blessings.
Love you always.
~ Shakuntala Ragoonanan
Nuggets of Unparallel Wisdom
Memories of our beloved Badi didi,
At times, Grace showers on you unasked. And you only realize it much later.
Even though I had felt Badi didi’s enigmatic, graceful presence during my annual visits since 2008, it wasn’t until 2011 that I felt the powerful impact of her persona on my journey on this path.
Due to life’s circumstances, I could visit Maharaj Ji for one full day in December 2011 at Golokdham. The lesson I felt deep within changed one thing forever.
With barely any other foreigners in the afternoon, I was showered with the exclusive opportunity to spend a long time with our three Didis that day. While they chose from the visiting vendors the delicately ornate fabrics for Kishori Ji and Sita Maiya’s lehenga for the Prem Mandir inauguration day.
Come for a long time to your Gurudham:
It was a time of feeling great connections, especially with Badi didi, as I was blessed with the opportunity to massage her shoulders for a long time.
When I was ready to leave that evening, I went to Badi Didi’s corner meeting room upstairs.
She cupped my face in her palms and looked into my eyes, imploring, “Bas? Ja rahe ho? Whenever you come to meet your Guru, you must come for a loooong time. How else will your love grow for him?”
I cringed in shame and made a silent promise to myself.
With infinite blessings, I have never had to come back for a tiny sliver of time since then.
God Himself is light!
Once, back in the day, we were all huddled up around our Didis in the tiny sitting room in Didis’ mahal in Mangarh.
Someone mentioned the strict rules—the vidhis—one needs to follow if anyone has a murti in their home, mildly chiding those who go elsewhere for days without leaving a light on.
Badi didi immediately corrected her with her inimical, soft reprimand, “God Himself is light. He doesn’t need an electric bulb. If anyone is truly following Maharaj Ji, they know such rules are not important. Loving God is important. If you love God, there’s no place for these rules.”
Didi’s explanation left a mark on my mind, reaffirming the banalities of rules and rituals. She spoke with such conviction that it deepened Maharaj Ji’s message on my personal devotional journey.
Never think you’re less lucky:
At another time, in the same sitting room, we were optimally squeezed into every square inch of the floor. A young couple came in with their two-year-old son. They lowered the baby in front of Badi didi. The child immediately folded his hands to Badi didi’s Radhey greetings, hugged her around the knees, and planted a kiss.
We swooned in delight to see such an expression of love in the baby. Someone in the crowd thought out loud how lucky this child was to have devotion in his heart from such an early age. There was a hum of affirmation all around.
That was enough to stir the motherly irk in Badi didi. She affectionately rebuked all of us.
“In what way are you less lucky?” Didi asked.
“Don’t ever think you’re less lucky,” she emphasized. “In fact, you’re luckier than he. You’ve come to Maharaj Ji after suffering the futility of the world. Now you know the tattvagyan from Maharaj Ji,” Badi didi explained.
“This child is only two years old. Who knows what will influence him as a teenager? He may go astray,” she continued to explain. “But you know Maharaj Ji’s philosophy. So, you’re luckier than he. Never ever consider yourself less lucky.”
These valuable words woke me up from a slumber. I, too, used to think little children were lucky to start devotion at an early age. I often repented not having started earlier. But Badi didi’s words were so rational that I felt blessed to be present at that moment.
Praise only Hari-Guru:
Recently, after a young girl’s sweet presentation of a Gazal during a picnic, many devotees clapped and showered accolades on her.
Badi didi reminded us not to praise anyone because it’s harmful (as it fans the obstinate ego). “If you have to praise anyone, may it be for Him alone,” her arm lifting up high.
There are many more beads of practical wisdom that I’m collecting as I trace my way down memory lane. Hoping to thread them into a garland of love.
A child doesn’t recognize a priceless diamond. I am that child… still learning, still picking.
In her passing, Badi didi has shaken us all to realize the value and depth of her words, to follow in her footsteps of modeling the ideal life of seva for a devotee. The most intense blessings, the scriptures say, are those that snatch our favorite thing from us.
I’m trying to see the blessing imbued in this experience of losing Badi didi’s physical presence. In accepting this loss as Shri Maharaj Ji’s will to teach us a higher lesson.
The blessing is showing its signs… aren’t we all thinking of her (and her powerful messages) more than ever before? May it propel us forward on our path to make our Barididi and Papa happy to see our progress.
~ Brinda (Balaka. B Ghosh), The Green Writer
Meeting you for the first time at the age of 19 and now at 60, there is a long dash filled with fond memories to help keep me going for the rest of my life. I remember every moment, every smile, every funny look, and every scolding you blessed me with. You were a mother, a sister, a guide, a teacher, and a friend to me. After Shri Maharaj Ji and Shri Amma Ji left this material world, I thought I had sunk into despair, but you became a pillar of strength by not only teaching and sharing Shri Maharaj Ji’s philosophy but living every word of the teachings. Over the years, by watching you, the definition of unconditional love and selfless devotion to God and the Guru became clearer. Now, even though you are not here physically, your presence will always be felt floating in my dreams, gentle whispers in the wind echoing your tender, sweet words, the warmth of sunshine will remind me of the touch of your tight hugs and gentle kisses on cheeks. As I sit here reading one of your handwritten letters to me (the most precious), it seems as if you are speaking these words, tears rolling down my cheeks, my darling didi, I promise to work hard and try my best to make you proud. There are not enough words to describe just what an important role you have played in my life. Thank you for the gift of life, full of countless memories.
My Dear Badi Didi, Aap ki (As you wrote in your letter), Pyari Rano
Radhey Radhey Badi didi, you will always be in my heart. The way you always spread your love can never be forgotten. You cared like a mother cares for her child. On Zoom, you always gave me so much love. When you used to say, “Mamta tu na gayi mere maan se “, it will always hold a special place in my heart. When Zoom used to start, I would always think to myself, “ I wish I could just fly to come to you”.
My love for you cannot be expressed in words. I just want to cherish the love I have for you in my heart forever. Love you sooo much, my Badi Didi.
Radhey Radhey, Pranam, Badi Didi.
~ Love you so much, Mamta
Badi Didi had a powerful impact on my life, and I will always remember what she’s taught me. Although I didn’t get to meet Shri Maharaj Ji in person, it is because of Badi Didi and her unconditional love that I am able to progress in this devotional path.
Badi Didi was a mother to me, and even though she always instructed me to solely love Shri Maharaj Ji, it is practically impossible not to have so much love for her as well. Badi Didi is the epitome of love, and I promise you, Badi Didi, that I will meet Shri Maharaj Ji.
Miss you, Badi Didi… until I see you again.
Yours,
~ Shilpa Chaudhary
Badi Didi has been my guiding light, illuminating a path I never imagined possible. When I wondered how I could fulfill our guru’s instructions to serve, even from across the ocean after completing my medical education, she gently cleared the way, enabling me to carry out my seva virtually. Through her foresight and unwavering support, each obstacle dissolved before it could take form. I am profoundly grateful to Didi for her thoughtfulness and compassion. Truly, she has anticipated every need, nurturing in me the capacity to serve, regardless of distance or circumstance.
Thank you Badi Didi
~ Love, Sarita Sharma, MD
You worked tirelessly till your last moment to make our beloved Guru Dev our life breath and always remind us of M’jis instructions to keep us on the right path of selfless devotion and make the best use of every moment. This is your unique contribution to sinful people like us on the path of devotion! You gave us so much love, and that love is divine, which connects the earthly to the eternal We must open our hearts to receive that priceless Grace.
We promise that we will devote our lives to Hari Guru Service.
We will love and miss you Badi didi.
~ Dear Badi didi, Hari (Bagdasar Bayvertyan)
Shrimad Sadguru Sarkar Ki Jai!
I feel extremely fortunate to have gotten Pyari Badi Jiji’s loving association in this lifetime. Ever since Pyari Jiji’s first Darshan in 2015, my life has been transformed, and she has helped me tremendously in increasing my love for Shri Maharaj Ji. With Her Divine Grace, I got repeated opportunities to visit JKP Ashrams in Mangarh, Barsana, Vrindavan, and even Mussoorie. Despite being the President of JKP and having an extremely busy daily schedule, it’s amazing how easily approachable she was and made time to interact with so many Satsangis (who she cared for like her own children). Each time I was blessed to get Her Darshan, She guided me on ways to grow my devotion towards Shri Maharaj Ji, find opportunities for Seva, and get close association with Herself, Manjhli Didi, and Chhoti Didi (something I could have only dreamt of).
Badi Didi is the personification of Love, Surrender, and Selfless Seva to Shri Maharaj Ji. In spite of all my flaws, Badi Didi continued to shower her love on me, my family, and even my extended family. She constantly, tirelessly guided all of us devotees to follow Shri Maharaj Ji’s philosophy in a simplified and practical manner. Getting Didis’ Darshan on zoom during COVID was yet another unprecedented blessing. I always yearned to get Pyari Didis’ Darshan on Zoom every day.
Thank you, Badi Didi, for showering your immense, unconditional love and maternal care. There are not enough words to express my gratitude for all the unimaginable efforts you have made to bring me closer to Shri Maharaj Ji. I miss you a lot, Pyari Jiji, for you were a beacon of hope and positivity. Your love has left an indelible mark on my heart. Your sweet, gentle, and captivating smile, Your kind, comforting, and uplifting words, Your relentless efforts to guide us through Your actions will continue to inspire us, Your children, for generations to come.
Koti Koti Pranam to You
Jai Shri Radhey
~ Tribute to Badi Didi, Garima Joshi – USA
Have you ever felt that someone is your shelter and is protecting you from everything? Well, when I meet Badi Didi or when I see her or when I think about her, I always feel like she is my shelter. And I just feel the devotional aura coming from her. She would always give me feedback that would help me progress on the path of devotion. When I would wake up early for Zoom, she would always give me an approving nod. She would always tell me to study hard. She has always done what would benefit everyone,, like creating Kripalu Nidhi and creating The Bhakti Challenge. I feel Badi Didi with me when I watch Shri Maharaj Ji’s videos on Kripalu Nidhi and do my Bhakti Challenges.
~ Keshav Trivedi, USA (Youth)
Badi didi was the epitome of kindness. After Maharaji, she was the guiding light whom we followed to increase our sadhana and stay on the spiritual path.
She was so kind and gentle. All we wanted to do was follow her everywhere and the fond memories we had with spending time with her increased our Roopdhyan.
The kind of thought and effort Badi didi put in organizing events for us to participate in, increased our love for Guru and God. She was a beacon of spiritual light for us in this dark world. We will always miss you Badi didi.
~ Taruna Jagota, Toronto, Canada
I remember when I met Badi Didi for the first time. She was standing far, slender, gentle and radiant, but she was very close. Our eyes met and I knew that she already knew me for a very long time.
Later on I got some physical seva for some Shri Maharaji centres, which I continued doing from home on my computer for years. At some point I lost my sevas (because of my difficult personality) and I didn’t know what to do and where to go. I thought about giving up. At this very moment Badi Didi sent me some seva to do through one of her sadhaks and later on she placed me in her Kripalu Dham teams. Didi watched my works and that motivated me to train in software, to do more and more precisely. I believe that Guru is helping us to do our seva, he helps creating the ideas in my mind, but she was the engine, she was the driving force and she still will be.
I close my eyes and I see Badi Didi. She was our princess, she was the most beautiful woman I ever saw with her perfect snow-white complexion, sparkling black eyes always full of love and compassion, elegant walk. She was emanating love, peace, light, and joy. She was always smiling, during the ups and downs of my life, her soft smile is always with me.
I felt extremely lucky I was able to see Didis on zoom everyday very early morning around 2.45am Indian time. I always feel ashamed, they are so disciplined, and I am the lazy one. I often become distracted but they always found the way to my heart to keep me attentive. And all 3 of them will stay in my heart forever.
~ Sylwia from Poland/Ireland
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